I'm a Horse with Blinders

What I mean by that is this:

When things get frustrating, tough, or I feel stuck,
this is what I do...

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Instead of doing this...

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Neither one is better than the other, both options avoid or ignore the issues bothering them.
I've realized that I'm the horse with blinders... I just keep plowing ahead, pretending that the stuff I can't see isn't there. Much like burring my head in the sand... except then I wouldn't be able to move.... and I'd much rather have my baggage on wheels, at least then I have the illusion of freedom.

I'm having one of those seasons. One where I am sucking it up and carrying on. I do realize that life isn't always what you want or expect. And how you deal with that is the true test of your character.

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So here's my situation now:
I wish, wish, wish, I could work from home, then I could be with my daughter again. Since we moved to Arizona I haven't been able to work from home. And I really miss it. At the same time I really am so thankful for my job and the opportunity that God has brought me! But it doesn't change the fact that my heart longs to be at home, with my daughter, on my own time, and free to be creative and also provide for my family.

So this is where I become an adult. I do the things that I need to in order to raise a family, because it's better for the good of others. That's called being responsible. At least to me anyway.

I do think it's possible to make the choice to be responsible and NOT wear the blinders. I know I haven't found this balance yet and all to often I find my self without peripheral vision, bull-dozing down the street with fancy wheeled baggage. I guess I just plow along until the scenery changes. But that can't be good either.

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So in light of the question above. I decided to have fun with my daughter and my husband, and to find the good in this season of tough. I'm keeping my chin up, and choosing to keep my peripheral vision intact. I'm thankful for the provision the Lord has brought my way and I'm going to learn to be content. I still have a drive and passion for all things creative, but I will do the responsible parts with a happy heart. That's the difference!!!!

And I seriously love this picture. Chin up and Dance!

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On the way to a Dream

 

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This is making me smile.

My husband and I had HUGE dreams. We still do!
Our journey to sunny AZ has been a fast, turbulent, weird and blessed one! We thought we were on our way to Australia for a school in film, we had spent the last two years getting our biblical perspective and we thought we were on our way to making culturally relevant evangelical films for different cultures that have yet to be reached with the Good News!! And had we been in Australia, we would have had quick access to the rest of Asia to make this happen!

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Instead our funds dried up. We didn't make much to begin with, but after I lost my side job, we were defiantly NOT making ANYTHING. Let me just say when you can't afford to pay your rent of $550 (which included meals) your in a financial crisis!

So we did the only thing that made any sense. We left our dreams to find jobs. I mean HELLO!!! We have a child to care for! We had to do this!  And since our Bible School was in Los Angeles, we figured we'd go to the closest city that had family and friend connections, and we also happened to love, PHOENIX!

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So we've been here ONE YEAR!!!! And we are working and doing well in a rough economy! We have a place to live, food to eat, clothes to wear and we are debt free. God has been good to us. And although we aren't where we thought we'd be at this time, I'm dreaming again about the possibilities.

So If I try to locate myself in this saying,

 

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I think I'm still getting lost from my old dream. I still haven't found the new one. But I am an object in motion, thank the Lord for that!


Love ya!
Bridgette

Killing time with Pinterest

So the servers are down at work... which means that I can not do my work... which means that I have EVEN MORE time to kill on Pinterest!!! I love this site! It is seriously amazing! I get so much inspiration from the pictures I see here! And I get to see the fabulous taste of my friends! Since I live so far from all my closest friends, I don't get to see all the cool things they do in their homes, or the sweet little projects they do with thier families. Thank GOD for the internet! Come and hang out with me on Pinterest, lets be friends, and be inspired!
How can you not be inspired with pics like this:

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Or this:

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Or even this:

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Can't wait to meet you and see all that inspires you!